Saturday, March 31, 2012

Artists And Award Shows.

Sometimes... it takes a room full of stars to make you smile.

Just watched the KCA's (Kids Choise Awards).

It was such a fun show! Full of stars, cheers, fashion, glamour, fun and... SLIME :-D (haha)

I loved every second of it!
My favourite parts were: One Direction's preformance, Victourious' win, Selena's win, Justin Bieber getting slimed, everything about Will Smith (haha), Zac Efron and Keke Palmer presenting an award, Katy Perry... and much more! To resume, I love it ALL!

I love these awards shows! I think it's beautiful the way they recognize the talent of all the amazing artists and I love the performances they do on them (they always put their heart and soul into those performances).

It's funny how sometimes we can go completly crazy just becouse our favourite actress won a award or our favourite group just performed at an award show! But I think this is all very natural becouse it's our way to show that we love our idols so much!

I give much importance to these shows becouse they show us that there are so many talented people that make us laugh, smile and even cry everyday and we should all be thankful for them giving us the opurtunitty of feeling those various emotions through their talent (whether they're actors, singer, dancers... it doesn't matter).

All that matters is that we show these people we admire how much they inspire us and how much we really love them.

Today's motto: "A simple song, movie or dance routine can make you smile. So don't forget to thank for the talent those people have to share with you."

Today's song: Dancing In the Moon Light by Alyson Stoner (

Today's pic:

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Friday, March 30, 2012

Thank the Love.

Sometimes... you just have to be thankful for what you have. (You must always be thankful for what you have)

Today I saw the movie Uptown Girls, with Dakota Fanning.
I loved it! It's a beautiful movie!
But it touched me deeper then I thought it would.

It talks, mainly, about two girls (an adult - 22 years old I think - and a child - that looks more like she's 22 then the adult one, but that does not matter right now).
They have way more in common that they think they do. Fists of all, they're both afraid. Afraid of life, of growing up, of being sad... and more.
But also, they don't have parents. Well, the adult one lost both. The little girl still had her mom, but it's almost like she didn't, becouse she was more concerned about her job then her own daughter!

Well, my main point is: I argue a lot with my mom (mostly this days) and my relationship with my dad was never (and it still isn't) perfect. But, even though sometimes our parents might seem very mean and horrible to us, they love us more then anything in the world and we are all very lucky to have them.
I can't imagine a world were I don't have my mom's kisses and my dad's hugs to calm me everytime I need (even thought I can't have both at the same time, since my parents aren't togheter anymore. But that's not bad at all! Like that I can also add in the "parents category" my stepfather, couse he's like a second dad to me anyway!).

At the end of the day, I know I'm very like to have the three of them (as well as my all family), couse I love them very much and I know they love me too.

That's all that matters, after all. Love.

Today's motto: "Always thank and love what you have, couse you never now when you might lose it."

Today's song: Need A Little Love by Miley CyrusFt. Sheryl Crow (

Today's pic:

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Wednesday, March 28, 2012


Sometimes... you have to force yourself to get distracted.

This first days have been filled up with nothingness.

There are not many things to do here at my dad's house.
I already did the biggest part of my "vacational homeworks" (those that don't last more then 10 minutes to be done) so there's not much to do anymore.

I'm just very glad I got two new "obsessions". Ok, three, but one is inside the'll see!
The first is The Secret Circle (this amazing series about magic and witches and stuff like that - which I love).
The second is Wellington (this rocking new band that's now touring in the Digitour - tour for youtube singers and bands).
And last, but definitely not least, Ricky Ficarelli (Wellington's amazing and super cute drummer - which I have a HUGE celeb crush on!).

Obsessing or crushing over this thigs/people has helped me not doing the same over... someone else.

But I can't still spend a entire hour without him crossing my mind every once in a while.
Although I am getting better at not thinking so much about him, since I stop having to see him everyday!
But I still can't help to check his twitter everyday, just to know if he's fine.
That's all I want. All I need. For him to be ok.

Other things that have been keeping me distracted are books. I love to read and in the last few days I've been doing it like crazy!
I've already read an entire book and almost finished othet! Besidesm I brought two more and I intend to read both before my Easter break is over!

With my three latest "obsessions" and all the books, I've been abe to make this vacations seem a litlle... amusing.

But the annoying nothingness still hasn't decided to leave my soul...

Today's motto: "Being distracted does exactly that: distract. But it doesn't heal or change anything..."

Today's song: Dynamite by Taio Criz - Ricky Ficarelli's Drum Cover (

Today's pic: Today I wanna have 3 pics here (one for each of my "obsessions" :-D)

BTW check my beauty and fashion blog ( and follow me on twitter (@Ella9999).

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Friday, March 23, 2012

Last day.

Sometimes... I just want to see your smile.

Today was the last day of school before my Easter holidays (arownd 2 weeks long).

I had classes in the morning but stayed in school almost all day long, for various reasons: to stay with one of my besties for a couple more hours, to go home with my BFF and to see him, obviously.

It's kind of hard to admit it, but I feel like here I can say anything and be always totally honest.

It's funny how everytime I say goodbye to him (in spirit, of course, couse I don't talk to him) he seems to surprise me and appear right in front of me a little while latter.

I was able to see him many times today, which makes me stupidly happy. Although I would've been way happyer if he would just smile back.

But it's already good that I got to see him anyways.

I just wish I could do more then that...

Today's motto: "The things you want always happen when you least expect"

Today's song: Say Ok by Vanessa Hudgens (

Today's pic:

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Thursday, March 22, 2012

A big twist.

Sometimes... life gest surprising.

Today was one of the best days I had in a long time.

I had the last "concert" with the band I'm (or was I guess) in.
The drummer is leaving the city so we are ending the band.

But we ended big! We did this preformance on a inter schools project (or something like that) where we played all day! It was AMAZING!! I never thought I would ever give one autograph... but I gave sooooo many I lost count now!! The kids were so sweet and nice!

But I don't feel all important or anything, don't think that! I'm just very happy I got to have a stage to sing and preform in and to have so  much fun as I did.

It's not something everyone gets to do and I'm very thankful I got to do it.

Besides, I know I still have a lot to work on my voice (no doubt about that!) but it still felt very good to be so loved by people I don't even know! Even if it was just for a couple of hours (becouse they've all already forgotten about me for sure by now!), it felt amazing! Like I could do anything! Like all of those doubts and fears I have were just... gone!

That's how I feel everytime I'm on stage, and that's how I want to feel everyday for the rest of my life!

I just hope my dream comes true one day...

Today's motto: "Life always surprises you when you least expect it"

Today's song: Becouse this day was so special to me I'll have two songs- Spotlight by Shealeigh ( and One More Time by Wellington (

Today's pic: Again, like today was such a special day for me, I'll post more then one (all taken from stage):

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Wednesday, March 21, 2012


Sometimes... life stays on hold.

It's funny (although I don't really feel like laughing) how sometimes life seems to stop in time.
It's like nothing really happened since two days ago.
My life is empty, like time has just stoped.

Nothing gets better or worst.
It's all just still. Everything just stayed on hold.

I didn't know that admitting you're in love would feel like this.
A big, fat nothing.

Besides, I hate not having control on my life.
I hate that I do things based on him, not on me.
Like passing in front of his house and not being strong enough to avoid looking at his window.

I hate that HE is the one controling my life now.

And the funny thing (that again doesn't give me any will to laugh) is that he doesn't even know it (or care).

Today's motto: "There can be no deep disappointment where there is not deep love" (but what do we do if we already have a deep love?)

Today's song: Wish You Were Here by Avril Lavigne (

Today's pic:

 Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Not much to say...

Sometimes... things just don't change.

Just another day in my empty life.

Today's motto: "After the storm comes the calm" (at least I hope it does...)

Today's song: Transatlanticism by Deth Cab For Cutie (

Today's pic:

 Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Monday, March 19, 2012


Sometimes... life just can't get any worse.

Having bad days is seriously starting to become a habit of mine. But, usually, they're not has bad had this one.

Just found out that the guy (yes, that one that desn't get out of my head) smokes: one of those things I swore to myself that the guy I would like would never do.

I also found out I have the worst dance moves, voice and acting skills ever (which might be a little problem to someone who wants to be a dancer, singer and actress).

Puls, I feel like there's nothing in the world that can make me smile and make the pain go away right now.

I'm completely lost. It's like someone just erased all my life and left just a big, dark hole in it's place.

Nothing and no one can erase this feeling of emptyness that's settled in the place where my heart used to be.

Nothing and no one can bring me back to life in this moment.

Today's motto: Sory but a motto need motivation. Mine is dead.

Today's song: What Can I Say by Shealeigh (

Today's pic:

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Sunday, March 18, 2012


Sometimes...simple things can make your day turn upside down.

That's why I'll always love cinema as much as I do!
A simple movie can make me smlile on the cloudyest day.

Like yesterday, for example!
After a day full of nothingness, I watched Radio Rebel at night on my computer.
Instantaneous smile!

Probably becouse the movie is all about standing up for yourself, having a voice, expressing who you are... and all of those things I wish I could do but each day they seem to get more impossible .

Plus I'm a huge fan of Debby Ryan. She's such an amazing person and she's a very hard working girl. Like one day I aim to be!
She is one of those people that inspire me every single day.

Becouse of that movie, today my day didn't felt so... empty!

I wish I could get every shy girl (but that inside has something more) the opportunity to watch the movie and, even better, to feel has amazing as the main  does in the end, when it all ends well (like in every "feel good about yourself" movie).

If there only was a happy ending to all of us...

Toda's motto: "Movies are doors that take you to beautiful worlds. Open them and feel their magic."

Today's song: We got the beat by Debby Ryan (

Today's pic:

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Saturday, March 17, 2012

A waste of time.

Sometimes... time flys when you're doing nothing.

Ever had those days when it just seems like nothing really happened?

Today was ones of those days!

At my dad's, mostly alone and working on my literature portfolio. And thinking of him, of course. But that never changes...

At least I got to rest... I guess. But lately I feel like I'm always tired, even when I sleep 10 hours. I don't mean physically, but psychologically. It's like my head is always havy, almost like it's going to fall out of my body.

I hate having this boring days, when all I do just seems... useless! When I feel useless.
Although, thinking of it, I don't really remeber the last time I was or felt useful.
Perhaps I really am useless!
But... that's not really up to me to decide... is it?

Today's motto: “Boredom is the feeling that everything is a waste of time; serenity, that nothing is.”

Today's song: Misguided Ghosts by Paramore (

Today's pic:

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Ella <3


Friday, March 16, 2012

Love hurts...

Sometimes... love feels like hell.

It's one of those things I'll never understand.
Evereyone looks for it, everyone wants it. Some people find it, some people use it (like it's some toy), some people just don't find it at all and some people, like myself, find it when they never wanted to.

It's one of those indecipherable mysteries!
I just can't figure it out!

If it hurts so much, why do people want it so bad?

For the last three years I've been crushing (ok, way more then crushing) over this guy (who BTW is so NOT even my tipe!) that doesn't even know I exist.
We talked a couple of times but he always seems to forget my existence right when our "two-second-long" conversations end up!

I don't talk to him for arownd two months now.
He doesn't even look at me.

My friends try to convince me that he notices me, that he's interested. But I know it's not true.
Can you blame him?
I'm just a strange, wierd, ugly and uninteresting girl!
I know my friends don't wanna hurt me, I'm not mad at them for lying to me. They just want me to be happy! But sometimes I wish they would just tell me what I don't wanna hear, to see if I would fall into reality. But deep inside, I know it wouldn't change anything. I just wanna belive it would.

At night, when I'm trying to sleep, I can't help it to think of him.
To imagine how it would be to have him next to me.
To hug him.
To kiss him.
To have him love me.

Then, I shake my head (like that would make the thoughts go away!) and try to sleep, with no success, obviously.

I guess there are some things that, even if I try as hard as I can, I just can't change.
I just wish the pain would go away...

Today's motto: "Fixing a broken heart it's not a synonymous of putting bandages on it"

Today's song: Same Mistakes from One Direction (

Today's pic:

Hearts Hugs and Kisses.

Ella <3

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Hello there!

Sometimes... a girl has to do what a girl has to do!

I've been wanting to start a "thoughts blog" for a while now but I never seemed to end up doing it. But lately I've been feeling the need to express myself somehow but I just could'n find that "how"! Until today, when talking to a couple of my BFF's and the blog topic came up.

I have other blog but it is a fashion and beauty blog (BTW I'll link it in the end if you wanna check it out) but nothing looked like this. My friends also have their "thoughts blog" and they told it was a good therapy and that I should try it out.

So, has I'm the kind of girl that one puts something on her head she doesn't rest till she gets it, I got home after my singing lesson, dinnered and sat down on my laptop to write my first blog entry.

The funny thing is that the name of the blog came to my head when I was still in school, on the bathroom actually! IDK, I guess inspiration comes uo to you in the strangest moments!
So I came up with the title that you  see in the bigining of this page! And I also decided I want to start every post wit "sometimes...". IDK why, but I just thought it would be cute (yes, I'm wierd like that!).

So...that was my blog introdutcion :-)

Today's motto: "Don't leave for tomorow what you can do today"

Today's song: Something to dance for + TTYLXOX from Zendaya and Bella Thorne (

Today's pic:

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Ella <3

P.S my other accounts and blogs:

Twitter - @Ella9999 (!/Ella9999)
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Formspring - Ella9999 (