Friday, November 14, 2014

Sleepless Nights

Sometimes... You just can't sleep.

I lay here
Eyes Open
Surrounded by Darkness 

I lay here
Trying to drift off
To that land where all we wish is true

But I don't
I can't

I'm stuck here
In the Darkness
Where I lay
Motionless and Silent 


Because you're not here with me
Because I can't dream and pretend you are

Instead, here I just lay
As time goes by
Until the Light finally comes 
And starts to erase the Dark

But not from my heart 

Today's motto: " 4am knows all my secrets"

Today's song:

Today's pic:

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Monday, November 10, 2014

Writer's Block

Sometimes... You get blocked.

I'm not sure if i can call this writer's block, because I don't consider myself a writer in anyway... But the truth is, I am blocked.

I can't figure out what to write about or how to write it.

There's a poetry contest going on right now where I live, and I usually always send some stuff there (I never won or anything, but I still find it fun and thrilling!).
But soon the deadline will be here and I haven't come up with one single poem.

A couple of years ago I would write almost every single day! Mostly poetry, even though I always wrote some random text and short stories (or long stories that I never finished) once in a while.

But since then, I've been completely blocked.

And not just in writing.

It kind of feels like my entire life is blocked.

I can't find a part-time job, I can't find a place to volunteer that fits me, I can't start my dancing classes and my driving license classes cause it somehow feels like I always have something else to do, even though I feel like I do nothing.

I can't decide which course, school or even which country I want to have my college years in.

I'm lost and blocked.

And I have no idea how to find myself and break free.

Today's motto: "Writing about writer's block is better than not writing at all"

Today's song:

Today's pic:

Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3