Sleepless Nights

Sometimes... You just can't sleep.

I lay here

Motionless

Eyes Open

Surrounded by Darkness 

I lay here

Silent

Trying to drift off

To that land where all we wish is true

But I don't

I can't

I'm stuck here

In the Darkness

Where I lay

Motionless and Silent 

Alone

Because you're not here with me

Because I can't dream and pretend you are

Instead, here I just lay

As time goes by

Until the Light finally comes 

And starts to erase the Dark

But not from my heart 

Today's motto: " 4am knows all my secrets"


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Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3

Writer's Block

Sometimes... You get blocked.



I'm not sure if i can call this writer's block, because I don't consider myself a writer in anyway... But the truth is, I am blocked.

I can't figure out what to write about or how to write it.

There's a poetry contest going on right now where I live, and I usually always send some stuff there (I never won or anything, but I still find it fun and thrilling!).
But soon the deadline will be here and I haven't come up with one single poem.

A couple of years ago I would write almost every single day! Mostly poetry, even though I always wrote some random text and short stories (or long stories that I never finished) once in a while.

But since then, I've been completely blocked.


And not just in writing.


It kind of feels like my entire life is blocked.

I can't find a part-time job, I can't find a place to volunteer that fits me, I can't start my dancing classes and my driving license classes cause it somehow feels like I always have something else to do, even though I feel like I do nothing.

I can't decide which course, school or even which country I want to have my college years in.

I'm lost and blocked.



And I have no idea how to find myself and break free.





Today's motto: "Writing about writer's block is better than not writing at all"


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Hearts Hugs and Kisses

Ella <3